all this time i only want the best for everybody yeah..so to speak let them see what wrong with their lives, what's the weakness and what's the strength..i took every minute of my time to do that but i didnt make any time for myself...kla not to be selfish but yeah..i gave my all to many..unapreciated one thing but i got hurt back..so yeah..yelah~ give want more cant give anymore step over la simple..human nature rite? haiz..seriously la..tired of bullshits around..only thing i regret now would be that of what i have done for the whole of my poly life luh simple say..why did i choose nursing? my mum asked me to and i tot it would be good to carry on the tradition of my family..why i choose to join mcg which in the old time i have no interest at all..because afraid of my GPA to be low..too bad mistaken so many times..this is my life i should have taken control of it..shit..just wanna say that nvr live your life with ppl's expectation..its useless if u yourself is unhappy...now im regretting to the fullest..feel like taking out my heart and throw it away and buy a new one..so to have a fresh start of things..not knowing many ppl, lesser pain towards ppl and towards ownself..

Labels: bullshit

The heart is the most hated yet loved organ in a human being..as it gives us the will to live and the hurt of ill..its the one that keeps us living life as it never stops no matter what the bearer says. It is said to be the most hated organ due to that when people are heartbroken..the pain that goes to the heart is literally unbearable..the sharp pain that pokes the heart..its painful..yet it can never be seen in the scans of X-rays or MRIs..its weird actually..i felt it more than enough..yet as it goes away the sweetness of the pain is wanted to be had..example of what im rambling about here is when you fall in love..ouh how sweet and wonderful it felt to be with that someone..but the pain is where you will hate your heart to be that sensitive to such pain..but after awhile..when the pain is no longer there, the sweet and wonderful feelings stays there..but by then you're no longer with a special someone anymore..i want to feel it again..to be with that special someone..that someone who cares for me who loves me..not like a mother,father brother or sister but more like a lover..i have found that someone that i would give my heart to but..its not meant to be..she is and will be the most beautiful woman i have ever seen..no matter how slack she wear or how lazy she looked..she still looked as beautiful as ever..i don't know why but she is the one that i dreamt of and the one that had me at just one glance...the best part is when she wanted to look beautiful..fuh..that time i saw here..wow..i tell u what wow!..i could not even say a word..(metaphorically saying) she was so beautiful yet innocent looking...if i could give here a good hug there and then i would have..but there are always limits to these yeah..hahaha..so thats all that is mixed in my mind rather than school, cca, and what nots..so all i can say here is that..if i have here to be mine..i will give her the world if she needs it..XD

wish i could be the one who won't need to care at all..but too bad i must as if i don't i will feel that guilt or rubbish feeling for not caring for a person that is in need of care..external or internal..tried once or twice but the feeling so irritating...simple say..i don't want ppl around me to be sad, or angry...they will tend to keep it inside..yet i will know how they are feeling as negative feelings are clearly shown if there are any..no matter how much they hide it..i dunnu why i can see it but ya..when i ask y? im here to listen to make you feel better you ignore my care..i don't mind that you ignore my care but i mind that you are not alright..feeling sad or angry is the worst feeling..it can get you hurt..and i dont one any of my friends getting hurt due to this..if due to clumsiness then it cant be help..if only i were to be a jackass that has no feelings towards others..how would that turn out?haiz..ah! fck this negativity man..fck it...ouh well thats part of life la huh..bad good worst...thats why life is so called a melody...haiz..people say they are sad angry and hiding it..im pissed off, sad and im hiding it aswell..all people are the same in this time..just need to let it out and you can feel better..so there no point turning back time no point saying this saying that if anything you do is not to convince yourself that you are happy and living life to the fullest..so yeah...thats the worst lie to be done..that is lying to yourself so to act happy around others..

Labels: be true to yourself

today was fun..everything was happening..hahaha..actually had lots of fun uh..even though not well sore throat, headache,stomach ache..hid it all and do what i can to have fun..so i did..hahahaha but still i just wanna let this out la huh..no matter how painful or what..if u cant let out your true feelings thats the worst suffering u can uphold..everything is bottled up inside thinking if i said this what would be the chain reaction?will he/she still be my friend? or will it let us to be gone from ok to awkward to strangers?as i said a few times to most of my close friends..i will never let u be sad around me and i will always be around u until u become a stranger to me..so now theres the thing..if i said whats truly inside..i guess we are gonna be strangers...damn it..if only i could just say it out to u..but i knw i cant..its too risky cause id rather have u as a friend than not at all..so ya the thing that i wanna let out to you is that i wish i could tell you how much i care and love ya..but..nah i will not say it yet..keeping it for the better and hopefully my suffering of keeping it clean is paid off..but my guessing its getting me way further from you..i dunnu y..always will be around unless you tell yourself that i am a stranger to ya..sometimes i act like one is because i dunnu what to say or what to do..simple say..i am shy to do things around the ppl i love dearly to let get hurt...so tu la jiwangz for today..hahahaXD

yours truly bobo-san

Labels: i will always care for those who are around me

yo~ hahaha..today im just gonna blabber what i am thinking..so here i go~ ahhaha...

all i gotta say to anyone that reads my blog is that..never feel that you are alone in this world..never say that ok la its my fault even if its 100% not...never feel ashamed of your mistakes as no one is perfect in this world...never say that u cannot do this or do that without trying or you said tried your best yet you yourself know that its not or its your best but just not enough time...so just never say never in life or in what you do as many things happen that is so sudden that you yourself cant find the answer...time, life, living all is in a balance...time, if it waits for anyone then it would never be the same day by day..there can never be a clock mounted on the wall, there wont be time simple say...for life..well its like a see-saw...it goes up and it goes down..thats why god created patience in life..when it goes up chill relax don't enjoy too much..as when it goes down it will break you to small little pieces...as when it goes down..relax chill...dont be all sad and angry as it will go up again in time...whereas living..its both of life and time mixed togather..as life goes down time will tell whether it will go up again...as it goes up time will shorten so to let you remember the hardship so that you will treasure what is given for the ups of life...so never blame yourself as self pity is part of the most hated things that god hates..but on the other hand acting high and mighty and just being a jackass too is part of the most hated things that god hates..so remember relax don't tension in such cases where its down in the dumpster as it will soon enough lead you to a better much more brighter future..learn from the mistakes you have done in the down side so to stay longer in the upside...(if u get what i mean by this) so cheer up matez...life is full of surprises...be happy that u had encountered such nonsense sooner that later...as one door closes the other door opens..as one guy/girl goes away another pops up to stay and help you be happy...it always and will be this way as its the fair way of life..dont get disheartened by just a few setbacks...the harder the setbacks the brighter the future is...so smile..enjoy every bit of life as a whole...and for the best of own life..never get too close to a person..love is love but still no matter how you love that person you can't know the future unless you get there..which is the present time at that moment of time..see how all 3 of this plays out? time, life and living...so relax..if there is anything the tag box is there leave a message and i will contact u personally XD

so thats all in my mind that i need to let out for now..do enjoy and wait for my next post..nudge me for the next one as im a busy man some sort..hahaha so all in all..need somebody to talk to..just call..XD

peace out
hambo/bobo-san/bobbyjonex/hamzah/cikgu hamzah/doc bobby & hambotiger XD

Labels: life and living, time

hamzah abdul rashid im a chubby guy..fun to be around maybe,maybe not..i love to make people happy^^

all this time i only want the best for everybody yeah..so to speak let them see what wrong with their lives, what's the weakness and what's the strength..i took every minute of my time to do that but i didnt make any time for myself...kla not to be selfish but yeah..i gave my all to many..unapreciated one thing but i got hurt back..so yeah..yelah~ give want more cant give anymore step over la simple..human nature rite? haiz..seriously la..tired of bullshits around..only thing i regret now would be that of what i have done for the whole of my poly life luh simple say..why did i choose nursing? my mum asked me to and i tot it would be good to carry on the tradition of my family..why i choose to join mcg which in the old time i have no interest at all..because afraid of my GPA to be low..too bad mistaken so many times..this is my life i should have taken control of it..shit..just wanna say that nvr live your life with ppl's expectation..its useless if u yourself is unhappy...now im regretting to the fullest..feel like taking out my heart and throw it away and buy a new one..so to have a fresh start of things..not knowing many ppl, lesser pain towards ppl and towards ownself..

Labels: bullshit

The heart is the most hated yet loved organ in a human being..as it gives us the will to live and the hurt of ill..its the one that keeps us living life as it never stops no matter what the bearer says. It is said to be the most hated organ due to that when people are heartbroken..the pain that goes to the heart is literally unbearable..the sharp pain that pokes the heart..its painful..yet it can never be seen in the scans of X-rays or MRIs..its weird actually..i felt it more than enough..yet as it goes away the sweetness of the pain is wanted to be had..example of what im rambling about here is when you fall in love..ouh how sweet and wonderful it felt to be with that someone..but the pain is where you will hate your heart to be that sensitive to such pain..but after awhile..when the pain is no longer there, the sweet and wonderful feelings stays there..but by then you're no longer with a special someone anymore..i want to feel it again..to be with that special someone..that someone who cares for me who loves me..not like a mother,father brother or sister but more like a lover..i have found that someone that i would give my heart to but..its not meant to be..she is and will be the most beautiful woman i have ever seen..no matter how slack she wear or how lazy she looked..she still looked as beautiful as ever..i don't know why but she is the one that i dreamt of and the one that had me at just one glance...the best part is when she wanted to look beautiful..fuh..that time i saw here..wow..i tell u what wow!..i could not even say a word..(metaphorically saying) she was so beautiful yet innocent looking...if i could give here a good hug there and then i would have..but there are always limits to these yeah..hahaha..so thats all that is mixed in my mind rather than school, cca, and what nots..so all i can say here is that..if i have here to be mine..i will give her the world if she needs it..XD

wish i could be the one who won't need to care at all..but too bad i must as if i don't i will feel that guilt or rubbish feeling for not caring for a person that is in need of care..external or internal..tried once or twice but the feeling so irritating...simple say..i don't want ppl around me to be sad, or angry...they will tend to keep it inside..yet i will know how they are feeling as negative feelings are clearly shown if there are any..no matter how much they hide it..i dunnu why i can see it but ya..when i ask y? im here to listen to make you feel better you ignore my care..i don't mind that you ignore my care but i mind that you are not alright..feeling sad or angry is the worst feeling..it can get you hurt..and i dont one any of my friends getting hurt due to this..if due to clumsiness then it cant be help..if only i were to be a jackass that has no feelings towards others..how would that turn out?haiz..ah! fck this negativity man..fck it...ouh well thats part of life la huh..bad good worst...thats why life is so called a melody...haiz..people say they are sad angry and hiding it..im pissed off, sad and im hiding it aswell..all people are the same in this time..just need to let it out and you can feel better..so there no point turning back time no point saying this saying that if anything you do is not to convince yourself that you are happy and living life to the fullest..so yeah...thats the worst lie to be done..that is lying to yourself so to act happy around others..

Labels: be true to yourself

today was fun..everything was happening..hahaha..actually had lots of fun uh..even though not well sore throat, headache,stomach ache..hid it all and do what i can to have fun..so i did..hahahaha but still i just wanna let this out la huh..no matter how painful or what..if u cant let out your true feelings thats the worst suffering u can uphold..everything is bottled up inside thinking if i said this what would be the chain reaction?will he/she still be my friend? or will it let us to be gone from ok to awkward to strangers?as i said a few times to most of my close friends..i will never let u be sad around me and i will always be around u until u become a stranger to me..so now theres the thing..if i said whats truly inside..i guess we are gonna be strangers...damn it..if only i could just say it out to u..but i knw i cant..its too risky cause id rather have u as a friend than not at all..so ya the thing that i wanna let out to you is that i wish i could tell you how much i care and love ya..but..nah i will not say it yet..keeping it for the better and hopefully my suffering of keeping it clean is paid off..but my guessing its getting me way further from you..i dunnu y..always will be around unless you tell yourself that i am a stranger to ya..sometimes i act like one is because i dunnu what to say or what to do..simple say..i am shy to do things around the ppl i love dearly to let get hurt...so tu la jiwangz for today..hahahaXD

yours truly bobo-san

Labels: i will always care for those who are around me

yo~ hahaha..today im just gonna blabber what i am thinking..so here i go~ ahhaha...

all i gotta say to anyone that reads my blog is that..never feel that you are alone in this world..never say that ok la its my fault even if its 100% not...never feel ashamed of your mistakes as no one is perfect in this world...never say that u cannot do this or do that without trying or you said tried your best yet you yourself know that its not or its your best but just not enough time...so just never say never in life or in what you do as many things happen that is so sudden that you yourself cant find the answer...time, life, living all is in a balance...time, if it waits for anyone then it would never be the same day by day..there can never be a clock mounted on the wall, there wont be time simple say...for life..well its like a see-saw...it goes up and it goes down..thats why god created patience in life..when it goes up chill relax don't enjoy too much..as when it goes down it will break you to small little pieces...as when it goes down..relax chill...dont be all sad and angry as it will go up again in time...whereas living..its both of life and time mixed togather..as life goes down time will tell whether it will go up again...as it goes up time will shorten so to let you remember the hardship so that you will treasure what is given for the ups of life...so never blame yourself as self pity is part of the most hated things that god hates..but on the other hand acting high and mighty and just being a jackass too is part of the most hated things that god hates..so remember relax don't tension in such cases where its down in the dumpster as it will soon enough lead you to a better much more brighter future..learn from the mistakes you have done in the down side so to stay longer in the upside...(if u get what i mean by this) so cheer up matez...life is full of surprises...be happy that u had encountered such nonsense sooner that later...as one door closes the other door opens..as one guy/girl goes away another pops up to stay and help you be happy...it always and will be this way as its the fair way of life..dont get disheartened by just a few setbacks...the harder the setbacks the brighter the future is...so smile..enjoy every bit of life as a whole...and for the best of own life..never get too close to a person..love is love but still no matter how you love that person you can't know the future unless you get there..which is the present time at that moment of time..see how all 3 of this plays out? time, life and living...so relax..if there is anything the tag box is there leave a message and i will contact u personally XD

so thats all in my mind that i need to let out for now..do enjoy and wait for my next post..nudge me for the next one as im a busy man some sort..hahaha so all in all..need somebody to talk to..just call..XD

peace out
hambo/bobo-san/bobbyjonex/hamzah/cikgu hamzah/doc bobby & hambotiger XD

Labels: life and living, time

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