start of it all..hahaha

gave up..

2012-01-11T07:48:00.000-08:00

Haiz...too much stressors..no one cares..live life alone..to many negativity anger sadness..why?why now?dissappointed with myself..useless piece of crap..haiz..what am i to do with my life..thats it uh..im out..doing what ppl say wont get me anywhere..doing things for ppl sake wont get me anywhere..im gonna be one pain in the ass that everyone is to me..live my life and be free of ppls perceptions..fuck u all tramps and bitches..i had enough!

no title

2011-12-13T05:45:00.000-08:00

yes ah! im gonna MIA more sey like this..the more i MIA the more better grades i get..more time to study..but my social life will be rubbish la kn..haiyo..how uh?nvm uh.. from now till end of this semester's exam i won't approach people even when im bored la..but if people approach me then i will entertain uh..hahaha..but be sure that i would never approach anyone within this time till my last paper..but face to face saying hi bye ok la..chitchat here and there face to face is a must deh!hahahaha...but for sms or callings and all this..hahaha kirim salam aitez..unless its all incoming first..hehehe..kk la..last but not least..1 presentation down..4 or 3 more to go! 1 exam down...5 more to go!!WOOHOO!! settlezx...concentration!

wow...

2011-11-25T08:05:00.000-08:00

k hello people who read my posts..as if there is any..hahhaha..if there is thx for reading yeah?hehehe

ok last post was about so called weird and off for me..what to do..speaking from the heart rite?hehehe..for tonight yeah..im gonna just gonna say..today's rugby was great..had some laughs and had some tries..happy la simple say yeah..it has been too long since i do what i loved most to do..it feels so refreshing when done yeah..hahaha..k la all in all..whatever happens in life, its has been programmed to happen..just that the decisions made is the one that makes things different yeah?hehehe..so im off for today :D

hambo rolling off~

love..

2011-11-22T05:51:00.000-08:00

long time since i blogged yeah? true? not true? hahahaha..haiz..for today is short and simple..here i go...

OMG!!!! i want to love u..i want to be more than friends with you..but haiz..you won't know it..why?cox you have better choices..all i can do is just stand by you and make you happy..as happy as you can be..make life abit more worth for you as can be..if only you'd know that i would run on a bz street just to save you from being sad..haiz..all in all...i would make you smile when your frowning, i will give you my shoulder to cry on..i will use my might to defend you from harm..
so to you my beloved friend..i will always be here for you and will always love you more than you will ever know...

whats wrong with my decisions?

2011-10-17T11:29:00.000-07:00

why...im just doing what i know is right for my team and my part...im doing good for my team..but why do you guys think its unworthy?im doing all this so that you guys can be better..the team can be better...isn't that what you guys wanted?.....

you all said that we must be like a family..so we can achieve greatness...but why aren't you guys supporting me when im doing just that?

you guys...we have been close enough to be understanding each other..i understood what you guys...why can't you guys understand me?what did i do wrong?...come on guys..im not doing this for my own benefit..im doing for our benefit..thats what leaders do right?think for others and never for yourself?

you guys are leaders..so am i..but why are you guys so engrossed with yourselves but not the whole team?...haiz...

i need help from you guys to understand..but in the end..this happens..

with the thought of having support..non was available..even the very person i said i will always be there for won't support me..

am i that bad to you guys??huh?? all i do is support you guys..give my all to help you guys succeed in whatever..did everything in my power..every given opportunity..yet..haiz... feel like there is no more point in trying to be the person that i was..the good guy..

better to WLFF!

some people got the nerves..sheesh!

2011-10-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

hello2...it has been awhile i have blogged something yeah...well..today its not positive nor negative..but ya its more on negative...

really, some people got the nerves to step over your head..ouh how i hate it so much..

tmr they will pay for what they do..somewhat pay for their way..but its more to their advantage and to my satisfaction..hahaha..so its a win-win situation...

oklah enough of negativity...from the last time i posted something or blogged something..things have changed alot..experiences that i had never experienced...done things that i could never thought i could do..so happy yet so tired..mentally that is..maybe thats due to not enough sleep?i dunnu uh..ouh well..thats from me for now..be happy never regret what u have done nor not yet to be done or never get the chance to do..yeah people?hahahahha happy2 always! smile! be merry hahahah

haiz...

2011-06-21T09:29:00.000-07:00

hey u..yes u..the one reading this blog.efil uoy fo sdnoces 15 detsaw evah uoy dan sith daer, read this and u have wasted 15 seconds of you life....just this only..the rest..unsure..fun not fun..made ya smile i dunnu..hehehe...so on enough wit e distraction..so today was totally not my day...come meeting, i was unproductive..due to lack of sleep..damn the lack of sleep! but no matter..gave some research...hope it helped alot or atleast a lil bit..but all in all wasted my time there uh..coz i cant do much cox ya i didnt do much..so i planned to go to my cca for awhile since i have training today..but due to project i came late...too bad tho..should not have came as it literally is disappointing to see all the time wasted training went down the drain..but all in all...today was ok uh..taken alot of scolding wasted alot of time doing stupid things..yadiyadi yah...haiz..what am i going to do with my life....insomnia some more..wahhpiang! help me!!!

heyheyhey

2011-06-17T01:22:00.000-07:00

hey to all my readerss..cheh step ade gitu ehk..hahaha..ouh well just wanna write something la ye just to past the time...so for the past five days sleeping is not an option as everything mounted up so midnight oil is burnt constantly..letting me have my rest for like only 2 hours..example 3days ago, slept at 7am in the morning and had to wake up by 8 so to go to the group meeting for the project to be done..its quite a laugh actually..supposingly to wake by 8 but accidentally wake at 9.30am so came to the meeting at 10.30am..so i was late..feeling bad i was late again for so many times, i decided on doing extra work for my group uh..but too bad i cant let them see due to today i wasnt able to attend the meeting..no updates from them..ouh well i guess they are pissed off at me again..so ya wth pissed of for just being late and not coming due to some promises made..they want to get angry their problem uh..so today is a day of which i had spent time with my family..literally..hahaha we go to the zoo the in morning and came back way sooner than we thought we would be..so ya now im just blabbering nonsense about today due to the boredom as the plan was cancelled due to school holiday..wanted to go U.S.S but too bad..cancelled as we tot of going in the night but it is said we must pay for the 72 bucks not 5 bucks for the entry..thus cancelled plan..tot of going snow city as today is a hot day..thus cancelled again as our eyes grew heavier by the mile..hahaha we were driving around singapore btw thats why all grew so tired..hahaha and the best part is that as we all are sleepy enough, i turn on a song that is literally making all of us sleep hahahaha..lucky i smsed some ppl to keep me awake..if not..habis..sume tido..driver ngntok tkde gangguan..habis..hahaha lucky la kn im an irritating specimen when inside a car with aircon and good songs or upbeat songs..hahahaha..kla thats all for today hope to write more tmr if i have timeXD..cya wouldnt want to be ya~ hahahahaha

friggin' bull!

2011-06-12T12:12:00.000-07:00

what a week man...seriously what a bloody bull**** week...getting scolded at, getting screamed at, getting sarcasm at, getting fucked at..walau...who am i to you guys man? what im ur lil brother or something? not treating me with the basic respect i gave u guys i one thing..but fucking and blabbering about all the nonsense at me without a single proof? or any research on why i did some stuff? just shoot only..wtf is wrong with u guys man..don't fuck my life man..its already fucked up..i smile i joke i laugh to make u guys enjoy the time and be merry as i possibly could and u guys step on my head fuck me up down right left center..what the fuck seriously..don't man serious..before i loose all my switches to relax chill and cool down myself..better stop while your ahead la sia...im not your little brother or your bitch man..fuck you la sey..fuck u...stupid fuckers..serious la ehk..stop while your ahead la..don't make me do what i hate to do the most...

stupidity

2011-06-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

you know..sometimes...u will feel very stupid for that day..and u will noticed that i cant do anything about it but live with it for the day and hope for a better and more clever you tomorrow..i had mine a few weeks ago..that i dont mind..but the previous friday..it was fucked up...i know myself..i am slow abit..but wah..this friend of mine literally make me so damn stupid..but i was simply doing nothing..sitting down without any intention of anything..just resting..there she comes along acting all perky..then suddenly she acted strange..then became angry for what reason i dunnu..in no time she talk crap...getting angry for no good reason..ask her abit act like its my fault on stating the wrong thing..haiz..she blabbered on and on..dising and dising me..ouh how i wish i could just give her a wake up call that nothing revolves around you mate..dont think without u there is no hope in life..your are nothing...haiz..too much negativity in this world..how to live well when where ever u turn to all stating the negative parts..hate this hate that, irritated about this irritated about that..fuck this fuck that...omg! fuck off la ehk..see now i myself is getting on the negative side and im not feeling very well about this haiz...what is going on....everythings not ready..my friend is getting apart from me..the first time i met this person i wanted her to be mine so badly..because of her attitude, the way she brought herself up..but now..still want her but she is futher apart from me and i dunnu why..cant never talk the same way as last time..why do this always happens ehk? we are only friend and such thing happened..what if we were together? ouh how much hurt will it displace..haiz...so easily said...anything that is good in life will always turn itself to be bad no matter how hard u try..that what we call all rounded life..good to bad, bad to good..

yo..

2011-05-26T06:08:00.000-07:00

just bored and its been awhile since i write something here hahaha..1 month~ this is when a man that has nvr been bz became bz..ahahaha...ok la just gonna write whats up in my mind..some in malay some in english i guess?hehehe...

for the past month..it has been terrible yeah..firstly didnt tot that i would be so stressed up like what is now..all problems popping from all direction of my social life..from family,friends, and the leader of me..for the time being uh XD...
from family side..everything was haywire but to my luck it better nowadays everything just needed time to cool down i guess..then in the recent problem was that my bro had planned to move out of the house...i was sad but it was more shocking and sad for my mum i guess...it actually made her sad coz her second son is planning to move out of her house..as she loved each one of us dearly she could not see us go..so thats why she is sad thus as she is sad it creates misunderstanding amongs us siblings..each of us was asking whats going on and such why mum suddenly became sad and tot of renovation for the better of us all of the sudden..so we had a long talk..me my second bro and first bro..the timing of the talk was way off dah...it was at 2 am in the morning and im schooling at 8 am, my first bro is working at 7am..ain't it good?hahahha..but no matter anything family comes first..so we had the talk understood each other..had that bonding talk or whatsoever..but all ended with a smile i guess..only me la..i was sick then so..ya hahaha..

for my friends part..well it is...how to say ehk..negativity has aroused uh..i know its just not me as the way they talk to me differ so much..hate was in it..dissapointment too was in it..so it totally brought me down so low uh..but this is included with my parents too..they too look at me in dissapointment..so2 down man this past times in this month..stressed up about my religious class,then my projects summore my cca then family la all this..haiya..lucky im a positive person and will smile at problems that i know will cause me heartache and hatred..

for the last one..my leaders...fuhhh..they put the icing on the cake of my disappointments...first im already down and full of stresses all around..i tot as a leader it was done and i help abit2 uh..but nah..i understand his situation..im also in a situation..the stress thats writen doesn't show what it feels like uh..from here there it starts...one mia one is irritatingly breathing down my neck..but if i were ok not sick and not under pressure by all the nonsense..this is a small thing la..but it added on the rubbish so it made me go off the charts...

but luckily everything mellows down and better life is heading my way..talked out some..so now is mellowing down to be a better one la simple say....

so all in all..experiences taken to toll whatever happens things will turn out to be better or worst..but worst comes to worst a light will shine through and hold u up high and bring u back to the right path..just have faith in urself to have a better life..XD

yelah~

2011-04-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

all this time i only want the best for everybody yeah..so to speak let them see what wrong with their lives, what's the weakness and what's the strength..i took every minute of my time to do that but i didnt make any time for myself...kla not to be selfish but yeah..i gave my all to many..unapreciated one thing but i got hurt back..so yeah..yelah~ give want more cant give anymore step over la simple..human nature rite? haiz..seriously la..tired of bullshits around..only thing i regret now would be that of what i have done for the whole of my poly life luh simple say..why did i choose nursing? my mum asked me to and i tot it would be good to carry on the tradition of my family..why i choose to join mcg which in the old time i have no interest at all..because afraid of my GPA to be low..too bad mistaken so many times..this is my life i should have taken control of it..shit..just wanna say that nvr live your life with ppl's expectation..its useless if u yourself is unhappy...now im regretting to the fullest..feel like taking out my heart and throw it away and buy a new one..so to have a fresh start of things..not knowing many ppl, lesser pain towards ppl and towards ownself..

mixed~

2011-04-23T10:44:00.002-07:00

The heart is the most hated yet loved organ in a human being..as it gives us the will to live and the hurt of ill..its the one that keeps us living life as it never stops no matter what the bearer says. It is said to be the most hated organ due to that when people are heartbroken..the pain that goes to the heart is literally unbearable..the sharp pain that pokes the heart..its painful..yet it can never be seen in the scans of X-rays or MRIs..its weird actually..i felt it more than enough..yet as it goes away the sweetness of the pain is wanted to be had..example of what im rambling about here is when you fall in love..ouh how sweet and wonderful it felt to be with that someone..but the pain is where you will hate your heart to be that sensitive to such pain..but after awhile..when the pain is no longer there, the sweet and wonderful feelings stays there..but by then you're no longer with a special someone anymore..i want to feel it again..to be with that special someone..that someone who cares for me who loves me..not like a mother,father brother or sister but more like a lover..i have found that someone that i would give my heart to but..its not meant to be..she is and will be the most beautiful woman i have ever seen..no matter how slack she wear or how lazy she looked..she still looked as beautiful as ever..i don't know why but she is the one that i dreamt of and the one that had me at just one glance...the best part is when she wanted to look beautiful..fuh..that time i saw here..wow..i tell u what wow!..i could not even say a word..(metaphorically saying) she was so beautiful yet innocent looking...if i could give here a good hug there and then i would have..but there are always limits to these yeah..hahaha..so thats all that is mixed in my mind rather than school, cca, and what nots..so all i can say here is that..if i have here to be mine..i will give her the world if she needs it..XD

tired..

2011-04-12T00:01:00.000-07:00

wish i could be the one who won't need to care at all..but too bad i must as if i don't i will feel that guilt or rubbish feeling for not caring for a person that is in need of care..external or internal..tried once or twice but the feeling so irritating...simple say..i don't want ppl around me to be sad, or angry...they will tend to keep it inside..yet i will know how they are feeling as negative feelings are clearly shown if there are any..no matter how much they hide it..i dunnu why i can see it but ya..when i ask y? im here to listen to make you feel better you ignore my care..i don't mind that you ignore my care but i mind that you are not alright..feeling sad or angry is the worst feeling..it can get you hurt..and i dont one any of my friends getting hurt due to this..if due to clumsiness then it cant be help..if only i were to be a jackass that has no feelings towards others..how would that turn out?haiz..ah! fck this negativity man..fck it...ouh well thats part of life la huh..bad good worst...thats why life is so called a melody...haiz..people say they are sad angry and hiding it..im pissed off, sad and im hiding it aswell..all people are the same in this time..just need to let it out and you can feel better..so there no point turning back time no point saying this saying that if anything you do is not to convince yourself that you are happy and living life to the fullest..so yeah...thats the worst lie to be done..that is lying to yourself so to act happy around others..

jiwang jap?

2011-04-08T11:39:00.000-07:00

today was fun..everything was happening..hahaha..actually had lots of fun uh..even though not well sore throat, headache,stomach ache..hid it all and do what i can to have fun..so i did..hahahaha but still i just wanna let this out la huh..no matter how painful or what..if u cant let out your true feelings thats the worst suffering u can uphold..everything is bottled up inside thinking if i said this what would be the chain reaction?will he/she still be my friend? or will it let us to be gone from ok to awkward to strangers?as i said a few times to most of my close friends..i will never let u be sad around me and i will always be around u until u become a stranger to me..so now theres the thing..if i said whats truly inside..i guess we are gonna be strangers...damn it..if only i could just say it out to u..but i knw i cant..its too risky cause id rather have u as a friend than not at all..so ya the thing that i wanna let out to you is that i wish i could tell you how much i care and love ya..but..nah i will not say it yet..keeping it for the better and hopefully my suffering of keeping it clean is paid off..but my guessing its getting me way further from you..i dunnu y..always will be around unless you tell yourself that i am a stranger to ya..sometimes i act like one is because i dunnu what to say or what to do..simple say..i am shy to do things around the ppl i love dearly to let get hurt...so tu la jiwangz for today..hahahaXD

yours truly bobo-san

blabbering~

2011-04-06T14:13:00.000-07:00

yo~ hahaha..today im just gonna blabber what i am thinking..so here i go~ ahhaha...

all i gotta say to anyone that reads my blog is that..never feel that you are alone in this world..never say that ok la its my fault even if its 100% not...never feel ashamed of your mistakes as no one is perfect in this world...never say that u cannot do this or do that without trying or you said tried your best yet you yourself know that its not or its your best but just not enough time...so just never say never in life or in what you do as many things happen that is so sudden that you yourself cant find the answer...time, life, living all is in a balance...time, if it waits for anyone then it would never be the same day by day..there can never be a clock mounted on the wall, there wont be time simple say...for life..well its like a see-saw...it goes up and it goes down..thats why god created patience in life..when it goes up chill relax don't enjoy too much..as when it goes down it will break you to small little pieces...as when it goes down..relax chill...dont be all sad and angry as it will go up again in time...whereas living..its both of life and time mixed togather..as life goes down time will tell whether it will go up again...as it goes up time will shorten so to let you remember the hardship so that you will treasure what is given for the ups of life...so never blame yourself as self pity is part of the most hated things that god hates..but on the other hand acting high and mighty and just being a jackass too is part of the most hated things that god hates..so remember relax don't tension in such cases where its down in the dumpster as it will soon enough lead you to a better much more brighter future..learn from the mistakes you have done in the down side so to stay longer in the upside...(if u get what i mean by this) so cheer up matez...life is full of surprises...be happy that u had encountered such nonsense sooner that later...as one door closes the other door opens..as one guy/girl goes away another pops up to stay and help you be happy...it always and will be this way as its the fair way of life..dont get disheartened by just a few setbacks...the harder the setbacks the brighter the future is...so smile..enjoy every bit of life as a whole...and for the best of own life..never get too close to a person..love is love but still no matter how you love that person you can't know the future unless you get there..which is the present time at that moment of time..see how all 3 of this plays out? time, life and living...so relax..if there is anything the tag box is there leave a message and i will contact u personally XD

so thats all in my mind that i need to let out for now..do enjoy and wait for my next post..nudge me for the next one as im a busy man some sort..hahaha so all in all..need somebody to talk to..just call..XD

peace out
hambo/bobo-san/bobbyjonex/hamzah/cikgu hamzah/doc bobby & hambotiger XD

variety~

2011-03-27T07:26:00.000-07:00

hellow to my readers! cheh step org baca gitu blog aku ni...hahahaha...ouh well as long as there is some place to let go what i am thinking im fine with it..so here i go~

it has been 1 week passed by..time now goes faster everyday..cant believe that 1 week has gone by..but didnt regret what had been done for this 1 week..had laughs,sadness anger..all in all everything is settled..but nowadays i have been thinking...what if i fell in love with a person..what would that bring me to..would that person give me the same thing back? i tried to be the cool kid or the funny man..but it just brings me more further out to the world of loneliness sometimes..friends all having their own girlfriends/boyfriends...im left there alone..cant say that i have no friends..there are alot..but the closes ones that they always said (bros before hoes) has just faded away...i too can say that everytime...action still i can do it..did it before..my girl understands it..past already but then too bad luh huh? no nid to cry over spilled milk...so now feeling of wanting to love again..its hard to find the queen that i would pamper with love, with care...but all in all...benefits are there but the disadvantages are too..so all in all i have been keeping to the brighter side of life..being happy on the outside try to stay happy on the inside, caring for others so that they can be happy on the inside and out...as previous posts...my goal in life is to make people around me feel as happy as they can be so that they wont face any hardship of loneliness in my past...to tell ya the truth..thats the worst torture in the civilised world u can get..if ur alone..damn..its a hard life...cox there is no one to turn to...thats y i had made this goal...make them happy in anyway possible but in which it doesnt hurt anyone..neither me nor them..so to be said like a win-win situation? hahaha..now im having a case that is going on to be like my past..im trying my best to help..i will not give up until that person finds happiness inside and out..its hard yes but if i can do it..that person will and probably do it better..if anything happens then i will be there to be with that person...thats my goal..true goal in my life..as in these past few months i had a struggle about this...but now..now i am 100% sure of what i am doing and what i can do with the goals that i set when im in the right of mind XD...so too all who read this...dont worry be happy..if ur not happy call me i'll try my best to make it that u are happy..even for awhile i will make u smile and make u feel better at least for a moment u are talking to me..actually, my weakness is that i cant see my friends that are unhappy,sad or angry..its just too much uh...i will interviene(wrong spelling i knw im human not robot yea?hahhaha..totally forgot how to spell the word man..malu dah~hehehe) if i see any of my friends being moody and what not yeah..so do be happy..if ur not happy im just a call away..or sms if u insist on it..but calling is the best as calling u will know the sincerity of the person on the other line..XD
alright thats it..im done for today..wait for my next post yeah..so yeah..life live happy and do whats right in ur right mind not when ur "songeh" yeah?hahahah peace outz...

bobo-san rolling out~

life~

2011-03-19T10:00:00.000-07:00

hellow hellow hellow~...it has been a long while since i wrote my thoughts here...so here is some i have been thinking and not knowing how to express it..so language might be rubbish but hopefully the one reading it can understand?hehehe...so as the title is life..im gonna be talking about it then..simple heh? hehehe...
So, life is a huge thing to say about or put any advice and all that..but this is from my point of view towards life...many of us cant answer with gusto and confidence to a question on what do u think of life? whats the reason we are alive? and why is life so difficult?..these are such question that ppl around me asks me and to my awe, i cant answer them...but i have been thinking..from my P.O.V life is what has happen for thousands of years...we are here for a reason that we ourselves are not sure of what it is..but to put it in simple way...life is somewhat a teaching for us, it is what we are i guess..thats y there is earth...we are born here so to seek deeds and loyalty to god..this god is what u believe uh..i wont be prejudice or whatever..its all layment yeah... everybody's life has ups and downs...no matter how rich,poor or normal...ups and downs are everywhere, but the thing is that its the way u see the downs that it will bring u up higher...and how u see the ups that can lead u to go to the downs side...in my perspective everything happens just to test our will to live for a better tomorrow...thats y there are problems being popped everywhere and problems being created too...so all in all the best thing is to think positive and agree to a phrase that is made famous and also in the movie forest gump, "it happens" and also from my experiences...never think when you are stressed out or angry...think with a clear mind...if ur stressed up...the range of thinking is so small...even smaller than this,"."(dot) thats why many cant handle it and starts to freak out.. so remember take a breather..chill,drink some tea and think about it thrououghly...god's willing..the answer will come...be faithful and keep being positive...smile! its the best...anger sad or happy..just produce a smile..u will feel better..

negative~

2011-03-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

hmm..today starts up bright and ended gloomy...what a bummer and till now as im writing/typing on this post..still felt so irritated..tried to look happy on the outside..seems that everyone take it the way that im happy so its good somewhat...so to carry on...i was going to be late actually for attachment today..rushed out,troubled,anxious and agitated..but still happy..due to looking forward for the attachment and things to be done..and a cheerful patient that needs to be entertained..all is well untill the time when my shift is like 5 mins going to end...fuh..i hate it when people would just gave me that freaking lazy look and cant be bothered of what im saying to them...that literally fucked up my day(mind my french)...lucky he was a patient..so as the day goes on..it was very down..angry and lack of sleep..mood to eat was gone..stomach churning like what but my instinct to eat was gone..so headed on to school..for meeting at 6..tot of having some rest b4 meeting but too bad..but its fine..so on with the meeting at 4.30 and 6.00.....after that around7.17 headed for home...near-ing my home..while walking..mum called.........its hard to say la but..it hurts la simple say what she had said..its not like im protecting my friend or what its just that im protecting my intrests...haiz...thats y nowadays...i felt as if..everything i do is wrong towards her eyes..so as to all my family members..i do things following to my rationality...ok i agreed to that some of them are wrong but still some has no wrongs just pure interested..no downside to it nor negative outcome...still its bad or wrong to their eyes...what can i do...follow their way of thinking??how can i..me and them are different person altogether..mindsets different..thats why people are people in their own..haiz....so damn pissed of yet sad...what am i to do.....

hoha~

2011-02-25T10:21:00.000-08:00

hoha it is...ups and downs are part of life as they say...but they never say that people can cope with their own ups and their own downs...many quotations i read,some make sense and some just finding ways to make us more pissed off i guess...for example, look at the brighter side of life...it makes sense but it will just pisses off a person who is angry and confused..so this is for a fact that i knw...the quotation that best fit life of many people would be by looking outside the box...as from my own experiences, when u use this quotation, u must never be stressed and be looking at this quotation as u will be freaking pissed...but when ur in control of ur emotions, it will be clear...as i said to my older sister in the past month...once i mean but its length is 1 month ago,"whatever you do never do it on a stressed up level, when feeling angry and feeling sad or heartbroken because as you do that, u will never solve any problems because your bird's eye view on the problem itself is as small as a fullstop." so there you go..the story here is that...when u see a quotation and try to use it to solve your problems...never be at the emotions that i have stated above..u will suffer the emotions double time in fact it might be triple the dose...i have done it and got pissed for no reason as you will think and think and think but will never find an answer to solve the problem..as i said when you're thinking hard and got stressed up or getting more angered by wtf is the answer then at that point u should take a breather due to that your bird's eye view of things in your own mind has closed or zoomed down to a dot in a white piece blank of paper..so thats all i wanna say for today :D...live life, enjoy life, smile in life due to everything good starts with a smile..

written by:

Hamzah Bin Abdul Rashid :D

days with lack of sleep....

2011-02-21T00:36:00.000-08:00

hey~ it has been 3 or how many days already since i updated my blog...so here is some of the boring activities that happened..hahaha..actually quite calm and tiring..as always...
so as the title said days with lack of sleep...it has been around 5 days that i lack sleep...what to expect.. its on the exam week..hahaha..can't believe i studied hard actually. in my 19 yrs of life..there is no such time i studied hard..studied yes but never this hard uh..hahaha if this time i am gonna get more Ds im gonna shout out loud and run 2.4 kM only uh XD..cant do much more than that due to anger last for just awhile where as happiness last longer..hahaha...the happier i get the lazier i get to run..but other things is no problem :-) hopefully i passed all...in total there is around 5 days? of not well rested day of rest?hahahaa..said gdbye soon but as the head lands on the pillow bomb! eyes wide open and cant sleep..whats this call yea?insomnia is it? ouh well....in total there is tired, fatigue, sad, happy...all mixed together...but happiness is the main emotion i guess..hahaha...all in all, exams going to finish in like 2 more days..i cant be much happier as after exam there is a rest gap between exam and attachment...im gonna have my total rest for a while..so called hibernation if possible?hahaha...any person who reads this post surely know that i need sleep..hahaha so many dots, hahahs,and nonsense...k la..for real..since the last time i post till now..everything got haywired for a while,then peace then anxiety...after anxiety...is now..fatigue..and blahblah blah..hahahha...but within all this nonsense much of good deeds, and good things had been done..thats the best part actually...happiness is all around me for nowadays..even as tired as i am now..its the best time i ever did have because i can see that everyone is having a great time nowadays..smiling widely...even my dad smiles much more nowadays..hahahaha..but in everything there is always a let down..but that is the thing that doesnot need to be shared here..hahaha..here is for life learning from most of the things done and has been doing...so simple to say but very hard to do...try ur best to do this if possible...love what/ who is around...forgive to whom had made mistakes to u and forget about the sins done by him/her to u and smile..start the conversation with ur old friends who u knw u have not approached for a long time..talk to them..tell them that u are still there for them if there is a need to help..u make people happy...u too will become happy...and most importantly never keep a grudge..its just a waste of time and emotion..the angrier u get the more tired u feel but that person wont feel anything..so grudges should be thrown away if possible yeah?hehehe k thats all for me today..enjoy urdays with a smile and an open heart to forgive and forget..XD

bobo - outz -

good or bad

2011-02-14T05:18:00.000-08:00

so will start with saying good night!!! hahaha..nah just joking..so had a lot of good and bad this past 2 or 3 days? maybe 2 unsure...and alot of the good and bad were mostly chosen to be done..for example, last saturday...it was a well rested day i give u that but the bad thing about it is that on saturday, i slept for 13 hours straight..so from my point of view that is a lot of bad there. slept through dawn, mid-day and woke up at sunset...i say best sleep ever had but an awful thing to do..ahahha..so all in all didnt do much of saturaday..had no mood for anything really..just wanna sit down stare blankly at the sky feel the peace for a little while..so i felt the peace so wonderful that i didnt sleep..till sunrise at around 7.30 on sunday...i was shocked that i didnt sleep the whole night but its a good thing also somewhat uh..coz i slept too much..hahaha..so sunday, got to my religious class...still fresh got through the 3 hour class happy and ready to continue more..but too bad 3 hrs perday so ok uh rite? hahaha...then after the class..me and the family go for breakfast at around 1.30pm...hahaha weird but what to do..so had it..the coffee was rubbish!!! that coffee literally pissed me off, luckily i had peace(somewhat) the past day..hahahah...so the day went on..i got training on sunday around 4 or 5 im not wrong..but too bad..i reached my limit at 3pm..vision was blurry, legs were shakey..had to already..so i when on home..with a half hearted of regret for not going for training and one quarter heart of regret too for missing an opportunity to gain some knowledge on the things i had interest to do...but the rest was happy because there can be a rest time till monday where it is today i guess..hahaha...then today's activity was study time with a few friends...so for sunday had plan to sleep early and wake up early so could have enough time to go for a swim but too bad..woke up around 11 am..wasted...so enough of regrets..woke up then go straight to the bathroom..had shower..eaten some suppliment..then off to study..so came the time of 1.30pm started to study..very nice atmosphere, dunnu why but very pleasant i guess..all in all..had some laughs..but one point i laughed alone..abit weird..but i think she knws y..heheheXD...so time had reached around 6 then we when our separate ways..one to bdk one to u t one to woodlands XD..so..all in all sat,sun and today which is monday was fun, alot of peace around, energy, laughter and happiness..im not sure for tuesday, im hoping for more happiness in my near future and far future..hopefully my exams on this coming thursday, friday, tuesday and wednesday! is easy and i can do it and have a B for it..for tuesday and wednesday is next week's days..hahaha...k la thats all for me today..hopefully happiness is around for u who read my blog yeah? or read this post..hehehe
aitez..goodnight to all..hope happiness is around the corner for u and hopefull u meet ur happiness.

hambo off~

hey~

2011-02-10T05:56:00.000-08:00

Yo~ 4 days since i updated this blog..so here i go i guess??hehehe..
wokey..for the past 3 days had been a fun...studied with new friend and friends..thats a new thing..had skipped sch cause woke up late and had gone for a movie with my so called bro and so called sis..funny Chinese show..just couldn't remember whats the title...hm mm...oh well moving on..b4 i had gone for a movie..i was slacking with my bro...there were 6 police or what uh the ones that walks around the MRT station..looked at us..at 10 AM in the morning and came to us just to screen us..what bloody rubbish but too bad..now they know where i lived..ch-eh..hahaha..so after that..the next day..on the 9th of Feb..fuh..really done it..came to school early in the morning and the class was canceled..due to it was canceled i had to stay in sch for like 3 hours to my next lesson..should have just slept at home..hahahah ouh well bummer is a bummer but when looked back it will be a joke..so today was the day that i was literally happy..maybe too much positive thinking i guess...or is it too little?hahaha..ouh well..for today the nonsense starts from yesterday night at around 9.30Pm i guess...was trying to sleep early so that i could wake up early tomorrow so to speak...but i have forgotten..that i cannot sleep unless my brain is tired...there was then my mind gone wild and actually brought me to be very sad and i just don't know why...so i kept on thinking whats the thing that is making me sad all of the sudden..then the word 'love' just popped up in that plain black surface...it turned out to have mind-maps of alot of words all linking towards love...i guess my last post got to me?hehehe..so the saddness was kept..ask a few questions to my friends..they answered it pretty quick...and the weird thing is that..their answers were actually making all the rubbish in my brain settled down..but too bad it was just for a moment..so i closed my eyes at around 3 am in the morning just now and woke up around 6? nah 7? if i'm not wrong..its both?but i went back to sleep..hahaha so woke up like 730am and got late for class...luckily the lecturer was in a good mood and we were in good terms so no make up class..hahaha..from then on i started to feel happier from the sadness i brought from home...then today there is a tutorial class...b4 we entered the class i felt asleep outside of the classroom...the lecturer came..then i got shocked coz u knw..one of my friend did something..ah boo!!..then on go in to the classroom..prepared to listen to the presentation..rest my head on the wall...poom~ im gone for 30 minutes and the whole presentation is finished..that was funny because..i realised that about 8 out of 15 was asleep..including me and my classmate beside me..hahahaha..funny stuff..the weird thing is that the lecturer didnt do anything...so cool!!from then on..today seems like so nice and fun..saw alot people laughing and smiling..that did make my day i guess..so all in all..today was a great day to be had lived through..all in all hopefully the day ends differently as it starts..smiles all around...ouh yeah almost forgot..no matter how worst life gets at ya there will always something good that will rule off all the bad that life have given ya..but to get that something good..u need to accept what is given to u in a positive manner and accept that u dun have such thing in life that others have...then u can find the on happiness in life..that is satisfaction of your own doing..remember that...

bobby jonex outZ..aka hambo rolling off~ also known as..hamzah going to lala land~

falling~

2011-02-06T07:47:00.000-08:00

there are two types of falling in life..one is falling of something and the other falling in love~..but the similarities for both points would be both has casualties and both can give u a sense of life..for casualties as is known in the world would be injuries from falling of something..but for falling in love it can be both ways..good and bad..for the bad one is that the feeling of heartache,heartbroken and such is the cause..and it happened to almost all of people of the world..no matter with blood bond or with relationships with others..blood bond is meant by family..blood related yeah? hehehe..so the things is now that..i want to experience the good of falling in love again..as i already had experienced with the other two which is bad on falling in love and falling of something XD...actually to be truthful..i have found that person which is for me the one that has my gauge for a woman that i want to have for the rest of my life with..somewhat has most ticks on my checklist that i had..to make it less complicated this checklist, everyone has it...each people has their own checklist or preferences on their own mate..so thats what i meant by checklist...so to continue on..this lady that i had known was the one that has alot of ticks in my checklist..i cant say much because i am nothing much so to speak having a balance is need right?hahah..so as i was saying..she had me from the first time i saw her..but its abit off and complicated and many of my friends said there are others like her bro..she is taken dont bother..but the thing is that i am one choosy person in terms of this..and she had me straight from the start..so i had to hold on and see what happens...as my father said to me once..if that person the is one for you..and u know 100% its her then don't let her go..but the thing is that im still young and don't really know whats 100% is like..but i think i have an idea what he meant..so thats the reason for me not saying "nevermind there are more fishes in the sea".Thats the weird thing there actually..in normally do this things so to speak run away from the one that i loved and lost..guessing that much and writing this much..there is always a chance for a passionate person who is willing to go far for another..hehehe..so hope is high, mind is straight, everything is unsure..k la leaving it hanging like this..im off to bed and off to more on pondering what is the benefit of falling in love again..hopefully its not like last time..heartache..XD

hambo rolling off~

2011-02-05T04:25:00.000-08:00

hello there, today was such a rush and such a lag plus 50% of pain...today woke up rushed to school to help clean up the CCA room..in process of rushing, accidentally injure my injured right knee again..as if it wasnt painful enough to injure it again..so from coming an hour late..it became 2 hours..ouh well rather be late then never right? hahaha..still such a bummer though to have an injured knee...alot of things that cant be done..first and foremost is just walking and climbing up and down the stairs..haiz..such such bummer..so to all who read this..take care of ur knee!! eh i mean your leg!! coz without it u cant do anything to benefit your health nor your wealth..k thats all for the leg part..for the day itself well, if i wasnt there also it would be best coz..there not much help can be done..coz there is so lil space to work with..so have i not been there would be a great thing i guess..everyone is happy there and after..so best..hehehe..k la im done typing for today as sleepy as i am..nothing is going in my mind..so thats it..enjoy your freedom of walk and be happy of what u are and what u are gonna be...

hambo rolling off~

gone with the cold wind...

2011-02-03T07:14:00.000-08:00

my goal in life was to make anyone around me feel happy, no matter how sad or angry i will try my best to make them happy. but nowadays..my goal seems faraway. the reason why this is faraway because i myself is not that happy as i was. happy is indeed there but, its not like before. the reason is that last time when the people around me are happy i am happy. but now is different because i just don't have that kind of feeling anymore. so to speak i feel empty inside. the thing is that if i know why i feel like this then there is no more to complain.too bad uh rite? hahaha.shit...nowadays all there is to most of the days are smiles to give around..coz even an angry person saw a sincere smile he/she will smile back and that will turn out make them alil bit more happier..XD

thats all from me for today...

hambo outz..

wee~

2011-02-01T02:26:00.000-08:00

heyhey, just thought of updating my blog..well..today start very dry actually..the day was dim due to the raining season..everybody is not around at home..luckily i was busy with some errands..got to sch around 11.30, did some project and finished it around 1230 if i am not wrong..haha who looks at the clock anyways right? then after that had a blueberry waffle, which was a treat by my group mate..so cool! ahaha..they are cute in behavioural sense..then after we had said our goodbyes, im off to SATA, then to retrieve my hp at LG..such nonsense..said to call or sms in like 2 weeks time..after one month not a single call or an sms..if it happen once i dont mind but twice..haiya..hahahah last stop was going to ssdc to book my practical lesson..this one more nonsense..2 times failed..hopefully next tuesday i can clear my prac 1..hehehe..thats all i did for the day..just dullness rite?hahaha..but today was a nice day uh simple say..cool day without any hickups on anything..so nice..but so boring~...but to compare today and the rest of the days...today is the most relaxing day of my life..cool weather,nothing stressing to do, smsed returned..no thinking about things too much..everything is settled..hehehe so good~ thats all from me

bobo-san outz

anything there is something xD

2011-01-23T02:47:00.000-08:00

yo~ it has been around 2 months since i said something. i guess its time i did. This past year of being a student in NYP gave me alot of opportunities to understand how people behave and bring themselves to the public. I have seen confident people, shy people, low self-esteem. from this i can only say that.. whatever happens, look at the brighter side..even though its very hard to do so, try...do something that you yourself wont think of doing to have fun..be wild abit but not too much..the easiest thing to do if u have a problem or anything just share it..share it with someone close or smile...coz anything happens here is the 2nd/1st world country of singapore..the worst here is the best in a 3rd world country..so be happy of what u have..if the problem is a simple one and u can handle it yourself then its best to smile.. if its too much to handle then there is always someone around to lend a shoulder to cry on or a ear to listen to your problems and help u through it..nvr say that the problem is too big to confront and run away from it..problems happens for a reason..most probably it happens so that you can progress in life...some can be solved by just letting go but some are solved by looking at it deeper...looking at the brighter side doesnt mean to disregard that problem but to attack it and solve it by taking things or thinking about things outside the "box". alright thats all for today as this is whats on my mind today..hehehehe

yours truely bobo~

why?

2010-12-05T05:27:00.000-08:00

all the questions always swim in my mind keep asking me why this why that...
now there is one question of why in my mind that i can recall to answer...
the question is why did i create excuses for not falling in love with someone...
the answer just smacked me in the face...
young love will always sound sweet but will bite you in the end...
for my case..i have feelings for a particular girl and i wanted to know her more..
from the moment i saw her, she took my breath away..till now she did and will always do..
but love must come from both sides...sadly for me..her heart was with another..someone better, sweeter had swept her...her heart is filled with love and satisfaction with the love they have...
baseline on this is that..i made excuses so that i won't have to suffer the consequences of love when there is going to be a chance of heartache...
i thought i was on the right track but yet every time i think i am right i was wrong..so to sum it all up..i will never search for love..make love search for me..
its is by when i am not searching and falling i won't feel the heartache that hurts so bad...

luck there is blogg..i can type what i feel unsettled in my mind..
yours sincerly,
hambo~

untitled

2010-07-23T10:29:00.000-07:00

why do sadness come in bitter days.
everything happens so quick that i could not pause and think what's right what's wrong.
i have done bad things that i am not proud of for so many times but i dun got the time to turn and say im sorry. so to all the one that i've hurt..im truly sorry..its not that im a changed person its just that everything moves past me so fast i could not even stop and do what i want or need to other people.even sleeping at home i dun have time..talking to my parents, family, friends..all missing slowly going away and i can see all of it..im trying my best to cope but its very hard.
all due time when i have done everything i can and succeed in life and hopefully all of my friends are still in contact with..it is really saddening to see friends fight and u cant do a damn thing to help..just sit there listen to them quarrel..haiz..what can i do..thats the bloody question that always buzzes around my mind..what can i do to make good things come my way so that all my friends can be happy around me and not quarrel around me..the causes of all this fighting quarrelling are very nonsensical but still it happens..what bloody nonsense..that's it..i can be positive in every way possible but its a waste if i be positive when others are negative..might as well i join in the club and be negative yes?hahahaha
what a BUMMER!

why?

2010-02-15T09:38:00.000-08:00

all the questions are here to be answered by anyone who is will yeah..why is there always problems popping up?why is there always hate in people's heart?why the jealousy?why the anger?why the sadness?why so many negatives stays in our heads but the positives always there for a while but not all the time like the negatives that is here right now?why is everyone concerned so much about the others that they don't even know or cherish?even if the person cares so much why is there no comebacks after the deeds that has been done?why now people are more afraid of things that are different from what they see normally?why everything that is good always has it's bad side?why every now and then more and more harm has been done to the innocent but yet there is less justice that has been served...what has the world becoming into?why girls wants to be boys and boys wants to be a girl?what is going on?people change is normal but why is the change so drastic that man loved man and woman are attracted to other woman?why is everything now are mixed up?what happened to understanding the own religion and respecting it and following it?whats with the taboo that is encouraged?why is everything now going from bad to worst?why is there less respect for the elderly?why is there less respect from the elderly towards the new generations?why is there many conflicts at home?why is there conflict between close friends?why is there conflict between families?why does greed always takes over our mind?why dont we think about all those seven sins?is it that sweet that we can't live without it?this are most of the questions that runs in my mind right now..if anyone who read this and has any answers do write them..tell me why is everything like what it is today...

relax~

2009-12-30T00:59:00.000-08:00

heyho people...this few weeks was really a relaxing one...gone to the beach alone , enjoyed the view of the sunset and sunrise..all this would be more romantic if i had someone to share it with yeah..hahaha..the sun's gaze was excruciating the sea breeze was like the cold drink on a sunny day..they balanced out each other..the beach was seriously a place for relaxing...the weather was a bit off here and there but no matter..life is that way ain't it?highs and lows..good and bad..sad and happy..its all the same..while in that relaxing mood i was in..i had a sudden thought in my mind..everyone asks about y the sky is blue..but i never hear people ask why is the earth round?..why is the earth round anyway..why isn't it square or triangle?many questions asked..hahaha..the best way to relax is to say what u need to say actually..because you will get stressed out because u can't let out what u want to say or need to say..everyday its that way..that is why u get so tensed and such..people who say what they need to say they will tend to feel relax as they have given out their point of view to the world..about the world..that is y many people who wants to calm down another person they will tend to say..what is wrong..tell me..what can i do to help...as this questions are asked many will say nothing but there will always be something that is brewing inside to be let out..if it is let out, that person who is in tense will be at ease as his/her point of view upon something that upsets him/her is out and that is what is needed to be done..but truly from my own point of view..if u want to relax..take a walk on the beach on the sunrise or sunset timing..it will really hit the spot to see god's work of art..

so that is from me..cherio!

hey ho to the down and low..

2009-12-11T07:17:00.000-08:00

hello...this week i met 2 people...they are alike in the most unthinkable way..both has lost their way to live life and enjoy life...both has felt the need to not eat and starve..this are signs of depression...why they do this, i am still finding out the truth..i actually dislikes people who don't want to eat because of the feeling sad...for a day that is acceptable..sadness is the worst that can happen to a human being..it can change the whole perspective in the person's mine..an example would me both of my friends...they lost the true meaning of life...oh how infuriated they made me feel inside and out...they don't want to eat nor drink..they lost hope in anyway possible...luckily on of them came through in answering my questions..hopefully and god's willing...my friend will return to normal and don't start this awful crap of losing hope in living...if my friend does it again...i think better not tell what would happen here..hahahaha..my word to u all who felt worthless in living...there is nothing better then living..the best reward is dont give up..feel worthless?ask yourself this...where are u nw?, what do u have nw?, think of the people without the advantages u have..example would be a house that shields u away from any rain and shine..think about what food u have everyday and every night..u are living in a world of efficiency..if your living in a developed country and still mooping about your own problems and such...ask yourself this, if your this messed up in a DC what about people living in less developed country?they are suffering and lack of efficiency in most of things...they still have the will to live and survive!so u have problems..people all around the world have problems..u have to solve it like the rest of the people did..be strong never give up and your life will change for the better...i can assure you that when u don't give in to your problem you are half way to solving that problem...if u can't handle it by yourself find someone closest dearest to you that u think they can help..if u trust them well and never miss treat them im sure u will be successful in solving your problems and with your own experience u can help others around u and become a successful person..your reward will be amazing..as u are the key for another person's life that might just end tomorrow as they too need someone to listen to their problems just as u did so to let go and move on or to solve the problem that made u felt worthless to the world...so don't ever give up in life...solve the problems..communicate..god's willing your life will be well rewarded..so to this i say DO NOT EVER GIVE IN TO DEPRESSION!BUT! embrace it for the better..and always, always smile because every time u wake up it will be a new day

smile always:D

2009-12-03T04:19:00.000-08:00

Good evening to all who read my blog...here's the new iinfo..haha..i will most likely add new posts in every week because as u knw no one is free enough to update his or her blog everyday rite?hahaha

This week starts with an extra kick..at the beginning of the week on a Monday had an outing with my mom , aunt , sis and my brother..we ate at a restaurant if I'm not wrong Shintokyo..we ate sushi the whole day...I thought I won't get full to the brim when eating such small amt of food...i thought wrong i guess...only about 14 or 15 sushi and I felt the famished feeling..haha..that is weird for me.. When we are done and wanted to pay the bill , the price was shocking..its about 200 dollars worth of sushi..can't believe it but its true..after paying the gruesome bill we got to a stall that sells ice cream and coffee..I forgotten what its called but the ice cream was great..sweet but worth it..too bad my drink was not meant to be the same...

On Tuesday however its an average day i guess..had to say home the whole day rotting..i was alone in the house that day..my family all are busy working and schooling and such..seriously did not enjoyed that day...

Yesterday however was a better day...got out and explored a course in TP that i really wanted to go to if i could..it was like the TV says...water running cars, battery operated vehicles and all the clean energy stuff..haha it was cool for me maybe not for you guys i guess...after that i met my friends on a shopping spree somewhat..haha..PS bought some clothes and a shoe that she wanted to buy but need some encouragement to buy it..so as i and Su gave her some support she did buy it..haha she was really thrilled upon buying that shoe I am still not sure y..hahaha...Su too wanted to buy a pair of shoe..and she did..she too was overwhelmed with happiness upon buying her pair of shoe..why i don't seem to get..maybe...nahh~

lastly today...i had a movie marathon at my friends house but this time its a different friend..her house was cosy..if i could i would have slept there while watching the movie..but due to respect i have to not sleep and watch the movie..hahaha..the movies watch was great but the viewers response was better..hahaha..the shouting arouse some panic feeling in me..hahaha

so i guess thats about it for now...so any bad things happen to us..there is always a reason that will make us smile...so think twice before u let your emotions take control..as when that happens u will most likely to make yourself look bad and create bad impression to yourself...so smile always no matter the cost..at least show a smile to a person that wants to comfort you..its the best for everyone i guess..a smile is a strong mechanism that can make and angry person to become less fill with anger..haha..do smile yeah..Gd Night!

My first entry!!hahha

2009-11-30T04:43:00.000-08:00

heyhey..ppl of nations..just start my blog..if u have some tips do tag it yea?.
for today,

i had quite a day..got out with the lady of the house and her sis to go to bugis to pay for the holidays ahead..haha can't WAIT!!hahaha..so long since i got out if the country as the GCE O lvls are taken this year...SOO damn happy its over with..alot of things to write yet too little time to write it..so i will make new entries if i could if there is time...so to this i say..yesterday has past so it becomes just a memory...tomorrow will be coming and it is always a mistery...and today is a gift as it is called the present..so everyday is a new day..don't feel so down in the dumpster as tomorrow is a new day and if u start with a smile the day will be A OK!:D

so cheers mate..if your sad cheer up because u will be wasting your time being sad for the one that has passed because today is the present where u should enjoy your gift..